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Heeey it's back to that stupid time .. PROJECTS AND EXAMS ..... !!!
Well it seems as if it was yesterday that I was having my first term exams. Well if you think about it, it was like a month a ago. MAN this term always flies by so quickly. And amazingly, even thought our drs know that but somehow they make this term harder !! Why exactly is that ??!!
It's a good question with no answer and I'm sure that every student that has ever been in 3rd FCIS has asked it.
You have no idea the amount of tasks due each week. We have 6 subjects ,, each subject either has a task which is a part of the final term project or it has its assignment that contributes in our final grade.
I know people always told us this year is hard and you'll work like you have never worked and then when you'r in 4th year you'll rest only 5 subjects and the graduation project .. BUT HELL MAN .. this term is like going through General Certificate all over again :S
Eventhough work - as you saw - is alot, I still try my best to have fun with my friends. It just hit me that next year is the last year :S.
And what makes me even more upset that I have made some new friends this year with people in the 4th year and they'll stop coming in abt 2 or 3 weeks and its not nice at all :s. Although I have just known them but I have grown very fond of them and can't believe that next year they'll leave us alone and we'll suffer with all the younger people ( I don't like year 1 and 2 :S kids )

Its really important that you never forget to have fun. Specially these days since we r all depressed and can't stand anymore work. We should have fun together so that we could encourage each other so we could work.
And eventhough I never thought of it but today while i was attending the party tht CS did for Dr.A.Salah ,, for the first time I felt I'm going to miss each and every dr tht has ever taught me a word in a section. Even the ones I hate or don't understand from them ( its not my fault, its them who can't explain well :huh ). They have all tried their best to be the best for us and they all deserve a huge TU from us.
These people were students once a upon a time. And some people really don't treat them well, but after all , these are students who have achieved high grades and deserve to become our future Drs, just telling them thank u makes a whole big difference to them. I'm not saying throw a party for each dr, but at least at the end of the year go tell them thank u, we gave you a hard time, we could have never successeded without, we owe you. Those words make a great difference with them. It gives them more energy and enthusiasum to work harder and better with the next generation specially that we all know that the university's routine is .... and they are fed up with their masters and work and everything. Seriously these people deserve a huge endeavour so they won't get fed up and leave ,, because if they do then its the end. No other instructors can ever be as well as the ones who really care about the students.

A word that everyone should always remember - NEVER EVER FORGET YOUR TEACHERS, THEY ARE THE REASON YOU KNOW THE INFORMATION YOU KNOW, RESPECT THEM, NEVER FORGET THEM AND ALWAYS CHECK ON THEM EVEN IF ITS JUST BY SENDING AN EMAIL, YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH IT MAKES A DIFFERENCE.

Good Luck GuYz ...
It will soon be over

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Do you know the popular question that has a popular answer, " If you had three wishes, what would you ask for ? ". And you hear the same answer, " Well, I'd ask for never ending wishes, ".
Well, I'm not going to discuss the answer before understanding the question very well.
As soon as tht question is asked, you start thinking of all possible and impossible dreams you ever dreamt. Every person you wished once you'd meet. You start making a list with everything, and start categorizing and finalizing your choices. And to reach that stage you'd take weeks and may be monthes.
I tried to think of those wishes. And as the selfish mind of all humans, my mind started thinking of the greates and biggest dream I always wanted. A big mansion, be the richest person in the world, own a big competing company to microsoft with an ideal OS ( a new dream, only 3 years ). The mind wonders really !!
But then the rush cools down, and I started to re-gain my senses. The only real wish I have is to be happy. It seems like an easy dream but its not. It has many aspects to it. If you ask me now if I'm happy, I would for sure say no. There are a few things in my life tht I'm happy with. People might say am pasimistic, but I'm not. I'm just trying to be happy.
Do you know how anyone can be happy ?
To have a good relationship with God. If you have a good relation with God, you'll have a beautiful happy life cause there is always someone greater than any person, stronger than any bully, someone who loves you more than any lover would ever love you and someone who can solve any problem no matter how hard or complicated. That's why after you please God you are awareded by the greatest wishes you would ask for: Happiness and Peace.
God is always there for you, watching over you and protecting you.

يا مقلب القلوب ثبت قلبى على دينك

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Why do people tend to hurt themselves over others ?! You make your decisions and moves, always keeping in mind what others will think or how they'll feel. Even if you think you don't, you always have that in the back of your head. I'm not saying do whatever you want and don't care how people will feel , or hurt whoever you want and don't care !! But why don't we ever think about overselves ?? And I don't mean in a selfish way but again don't just neglect the inner you !! Don't shut it up for long cause you never know what might happen as a consequence to that. The only one who'll be truely hurt is yourself. Of course a decision you make may affect another person and hurt him, but its just temporary cause everyone forgets and forgives after some time. But if you neglect yourself once, you'll just keep on neglecting yourself for others, and in the end, yes everyone around you will be happy, but the most important one won't be; YOU !! You'll soon lose yourself and turn into a new person that you never thought you'd turn into. Soon after that you'll lose the ability to continue pleasing others over yourself. You'll be fed up and you might just burst. Its just a matter of time.
When thinking of a solution and what exactly you should do; should you neglected the inner you and lose yourself, or please yourself and might end up hurting a very close beloved person ? You just have to search and search for an answer. You think and think but you never reach anything, cause by that time you would have been in so deep with a lot of people. So my advice always start from the beginning and don't neglect yourself. But after searching and thinking and trying to resolve the problem you just find that the best solution for everyone is just neglecting yourself and keep on pleasing others, its the easiest solution.
It has only one problem though, this solution is not best for YOU !!

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I wish I could be a kid again, with no responsibilities. Just a little young child uncapable to do anything. Uncapable of taking my own decisions, and can never get blamed for the simplest ones I take or any action I do. Never be blamed for an angry word I say or even scream.
If you are still a kid, then don't rush through life 'cause you want to be a grown-up fast,dont jump stages 'cause life is a series of stages, a series of ordered stages, you'll soon reach that stage. Once you do, you'll be writing those same words !
If you aren't a kid, then the best you can do is be a child from the inside. Try to simplify your life.
The greatest worries of a child is a toy or a party or even a cartoon.
The smallest worries of a grown-up is life itself.
But as you grow up life starts throwing more and more complicated problems.
At some point ( at any stage or all of them even ), the whole world goes black. You always thought that if it ever turned black, it would start at pink and slowly fade into black, but it doesn't. It goes from pure pink and lovely, to pure dark and ugly.There isn't a single side of life that doesnt have a problem in it. EVERYWHERE !!!
Do you know when it hits rock bottom ??
When you dont even respect urself !?!? How are people meant to accept you when you dont even accept urself !?!?
When you try to think of a solution, your mind just goes blank. Trying to fix anything, you just make it worse.
I think there is only one way to fix everything and make it right, Just Pray !! Pray to God to make everthing right, to do what's best for you and everyone around ( and always pray for the best and not for what you want cause God knows best ). That doesn't mean you pray and do nothing. You pray to God to help you do what's right, but also do something about it. Atleast try.