No Goodbyes ...

Well, here I am up late when I should be sleeping in order to get up in a few hours for my exam. As usual, I don't want tomorrow to come. Normally it's because I'm not ready for the exam, have not finished the curriculum or just hate the subject so much that I know I well do real bad in the exam. This time its different though. I have butterflies in my stomach, my heart is pounding hard, my nervous system is working on its own, I'm just not me. I do want tomorrow to come, but I don't want tomorrow to come. I mean finishing exams is great, hell I miss TV ... yet I have one hell of a month ahead of me. Working on the project will be tough. I feel like I'm kidding myself. I mean, yes I'm really worried about the project but that is not the only, or main, reason for how I feel.

It really does feel like yesterday that I had just graduated from school.

I remember my first day in college so well. Every single thing in it. I came on a Saturday to find out its a holiday.

I remember the first group of girls I met. They too came on Saturday.

I remember the first boys I met. I remember how the next day I found out one of them is my dad's friend's son :D.

I remember the first lecture ever. ( Math 1 , Dr.Abdel Kawy , I came 1 hour late and I sat in the 3rd row in the front )

I remember how I loved the lecture hall ... the colors were a real attraction to me :D

I remember the first physics lecture when we got kicked out, and immediately knew that Dr.Ali is just not a normal Dr ( if you know what I mean :D )

I remember how we tried to organize a welcome party. I actually remember Ala'a and Amr Nader talking to every single person about it :D.

I remember how crazy we were and all the noise we would do and the dirty looks we got from the older people ( I dun blame them , I do the same with the younger classes :D )

I remember the first outing in Ramadan, when everyone went and they didn't even know each other that well. ( That is something I did not experience :D )

I remember Genedy and all the physics sections, and how Dr.Mahmoud Mounir once came out, shouted at us for all the noise we were doing ( mainly Doubi and Xeno ), slammed the door and then afterwards talked to us slowly about it.

I remember that old ugly lecture room in Faculty of Law and the even uglier one in Faculty of Arts.

You have no idea what else I remember I could go on and on forever. I have a memory with each person I know. Even the people that I have grown apart from or had some problems with, I still hold in my memory loads of great moments.

FCIS has been my first home ( I just can't say second, cause over the 4 years I spent more time there than home ).

I can never forget how we changed the TAs opinion about us 180 degrees. Gradually Drs. began to love us. After being called the worst class FCIS ever saw, now everyone is upset we are leaving.

Its now clear to me. I'm upset I'm leaving home, I'm not leaving you guys. We are forever more friends.

Its been a crazy journey my friends, filled with laughter, tears, hugs, friendships, craziness, drama, work and hypercraziness ( totally made up for us :D ).

There is just no way to say goodbye. And I won't say goodbye. Its not the end its just the start.

Hand in hand, we are all stepping into the real world, together. From now on, its leaps and not mini steps. 'Cause its a well known fact we are not just ordinary people.

My dear Class of '08, I have been trying to think of words to write that would express my feelings. I actually have been thinking for like 2 weeks now. There is just not enough words to translate my feelings.

Its been an honor knowing you all. Every single one of you is unique in a way. I can never let any of you go. Even those people who just get on my nerves, I can't seem to let them go. After all, if I do, who will then make my head explode from anger ??

There is so much I want to say. I think I'll be writing to you guys more and more. You know by now that my blog is the way I let all my suppressed emotions come out.

I just wish that as we are ending our first journey together, no one is upset or hating me.

I hope I have never hurt anyone.

I truly hope I've been a good friend to you all.

Well, I guess I should sleep, so that's all for now.

I really love you all. Don't you DARE forget me while I'm gone :@ .

News ... News !!!

Well this blog is different. It won't be mainly how I feel, it won't be talking about some problem I have, but will be talking about something that is going to happen to me.

Yesterday, my dad called me from his office before he starts his weekly work-out. He told me go sleep for a while ( I had an exam and had not slept since the day before ) and wake your sister up, let her study, cause I have a surprise for you when I come. I tried finding out any hints, he totally refused to tell me a word. With that, he ended the call and left my head to all the questions and wondering. My mum didn't even know what was going on.

My dad returned at 10:15 and called the whole family in his room, sat us down, and started talking.

He told us that 5 months ago he got an order from work that he travels to Kabol for a whole year. If you know me well, you'd know that this place is not so weird for my dad to travel to, he's been to worse :D. He told us that he totally refused the order and told them there is NOWAY I'm leaving my family. The only way you could get me to go, is to base me in Islamabad so I could take my wife and kids and visit Kabol every once in a while. They refused that suggestion, so he refused the position.

You do have to imagine how our hearts stopped by that time. My dad has a bad history of traveling to the weirdest places ever, Iraq, Eritrea and those are just examples :D. I mean for a second there we thought he would complete the sentence saying that I couldn't refuse more and I travel in a week or something. Thank God .. he didn't say that :D .

Instead, he continued talking, and that was over with.

Then he told us, that today, they gave him another order. They told him he'll be traveling to Dublin, Ireland ... AND WE ARE ALL GOING !!!!!!

So now I could finally tell you what this blog is about. I will be leaving to Dublin after our final seminar for a whole year !!!!!!

I bet some people are like thank GOD we're getting rid of you ... and other's are feeling the way am feeling that I'll be missing you guys so much.

I can't really believe it till now that I will travel soon isA. I tried to figure out how will I tell you guys I'll leave and figured that most of the people that I care about are the ones who read my blogs, so I thought that would be the best way to tell you the story, from the start till the end.

We still have 2 months and a half together or so, and I've decided to make the most out of them, cause truly I will be missing each and every person I know.

And heey, don't you think I'll stop contacting ya'll .... what is Facebook for :O ???? And what are my blogs for :D .

My beloved friends, you will NEVER be forgotten .... AND DON'T YOU DARE FORGET MEE !!!!