Resolutions ...

Well, its 10 days away from my 21st birthday !!!!!!

For starters, I have to say, that this is so not how I imagined celebrating my 21st :D . But I'm sure I'll try my best to enjoy it.

I wanted a HUGE party with all my close friends and lots of pretty flowers.

I like surprises. I really really do. I enjoy the unexpected.

I like when I tell someone to stay away, they fight anyway and be next to me cause they know I need them.

I like when I tell someone not to get me anything, cause simply I won't accept it, they still go the extra mile and get me something. ( I could refuse taking it but just the trouble they went through for looking for something and buying it still means a lot)

I like when my friends call just to say they miss me or love me. ( specially my 2 mais .. coz due to our colleges we never have the time to talk or meet )

I like people who go the extra mile just to show how much I mean to them.

I have found out that I don't understand myself as much as I thought I do. I get confused easily, I'm not sure what I want and not clear about my future. That's not acceptable AT ALL !!

So, as my new year's resolution, I've decided to understand myself. Apparently, I'm a good person that people enjoy befriending, so I might as well be my friend :D.

( I might be getting crazy here :D )

I just want to say that I miss you all, my dear friends, I really do. I miss our college days where we used to sit and talk, joke around and skive lectures and sections. I wish I could go back just 1 day to enjoy every moment of it.

On my 21st birthday, I've decided to be a better person, never judge anyone and cherish my friends and my loved ones. I'll be less aggressive ( :$ ) . I WILL CONTROL MY TEMPER ( isA isA isA ya rab :$ ). AND I WILL BE THE BEST FRIEND ANYONE COULD EVER DREAM OF HAVING, SO TO ALL THE PEOPLE WHO DUN WANNA BEFRIEND ME ... DUDEZ, ITS YOUR LOSS :D.

Happy Happy 21st to me (^^,). May I break all the laws :D

Forgive and Forget ...

For more than 10 days now, I've opened my writer everyday. Everyday I try to write my new blog and I just can't. Its not because I have nothing to say, because everyday I had a new topic to talk about. Its just I couldn't write.

I didn't understand what was going on. Normally I would just need ONE word to come out and every other word pours out alone.

Its true I did have a terrible week, or more, but that never seemed to be a problem when it comes to writing.

Today, and as everyday, I opened my writer and I began to write. I expected that like everyday, I would press that backspace so fast, that for a second I thought of saving the precious letters the humiliation.

To my surprise, and even before I put down that first word, my thoughts started pouring and my hands started typing.

I guess I was missing something and I just didn't realize it.

What I was missing is besides the point, or simply not something I want to share ( :P ).

I just wanted to say, that you really should think about your actions and the things you care most in your life before its too late. I guess now is the perfect time to for us to re-evaluate our relationships. I know I want to do that. Forgive and Forget (F&F).

I forgive everyone for anything they ever did to me, and I certainly have forgotten it/them.

I hope you all do forgive me for anything I ever did and forget it. ( probability is very high that I did do something to U :$ )

I really will miss you all. ( Dun forget me hah .. the forget here is not forgetting me ... its not an excuse :O !!! )

P.S.: Thank U My Friend, for keeping up with my craziness and for just being there. ( If this makes no sense to U its simply bcoz its not for U :O .. no offense :$ )