Well, here I am up late when I should be sleeping in order to get up in a few hours for my exam. As usual, I don't want tomorrow to come. Normally it's because I'm not ready for the exam, have not finished the curriculum or just hate the subject so much that I know I well do real bad in the exam. This time its different though. I have butterflies in my stomach, my heart is pounding hard, my nervous system is working on its own, I'm just not me. I do want tomorrow to come, but I don't want tomorrow to come. I mean finishing exams is great, hell I miss TV ... yet I have one hell of a month ahead of me. Working on the project will be tough. I feel like I'm kidding myself. I mean, yes I'm really worried about the project but that is not the only, or main, reason for how I feel.
It really does feel like yesterday that I had just graduated from school.
I remember my first day in college so well. Every single thing in it. I came on a Saturday to find out its a holiday.
I remember the first group of girls I met. They too came on Saturday.
I remember the first boys I met. I remember how the next day I found out one of them is my dad's friend's son :D.
I remember the first lecture ever. ( Math 1 , Dr.Abdel Kawy , I came 1 hour late and I sat in the 3rd row in the front )
I remember how I loved the lecture hall ... the colors were a real attraction to me :D
I remember the first physics lecture when we got kicked out, and immediately knew that Dr.Ali is just not a normal Dr ( if you know what I mean :D )
I remember how we tried to organize a welcome party. I actually remember Ala'a and Amr Nader talking to every single person about it :D.
I remember how crazy we were and all the noise we would do and the dirty looks we got from the older people ( I dun blame them , I do the same with the younger classes :D )
I remember the first outing in Ramadan, when everyone went and they didn't even know each other that well. ( That is something I did not experience :D )
I remember Genedy and all the physics sections, and how Dr.Mahmoud Mounir once came out, shouted at us for all the noise we were doing ( mainly Doubi and Xeno ), slammed the door and then afterwards talked to us slowly about it.
I remember that old ugly lecture room in Faculty of Law and the even uglier one in Faculty of Arts.
You have no idea what else I remember I could go on and on forever. I have a memory with each person I know. Even the people that I have grown apart from or had some problems with, I still hold in my memory loads of great moments.
FCIS has been my first home ( I just can't say second, cause over the 4 years I spent more time there than home ).
I can never forget how we changed the TAs opinion about us 180 degrees. Gradually Drs. began to love us. After being called the worst class FCIS ever saw, now everyone is upset we are leaving.
Its now clear to me. I'm upset I'm leaving home, I'm not leaving you guys. We are forever more friends.
Its been a crazy journey my friends, filled with laughter, tears, hugs, friendships, craziness, drama, work and hypercraziness ( totally made up for us :D ).
There is just no way to say goodbye. And I won't say goodbye. Its not the end its just the start.
Hand in hand, we are all stepping into the real world, together. From now on, its leaps and not mini steps. 'Cause its a well known fact we are not just ordinary people.
My dear Class of '08, I have been trying to think of words to write that would express my feelings. I actually have been thinking for like 2 weeks now. There is just not enough words to translate my feelings.
Its been an honor knowing you all. Every single one of you is unique in a way. I can never let any of you go. Even those people who just get on my nerves, I can't seem to let them go. After all, if I do, who will then make my head explode from anger ??
There is so much I want to say. I think I'll be writing to you guys more and more. You know by now that my blog is the way I let all my suppressed emotions come out.
I just wish that as we are ending our first journey together, no one is upset or hating me.
I hope I have never hurt anyone.
I truly hope I've been a good friend to you all.
Well, I guess I should sleep, so that's all for now.
I really love you all. Don't you DARE forget me while I'm gone :@ .
8 comments:
Well, ............
Can't find words good enough to say, but I'm really, really, reeeeeaaaaallllyyyyyyyyyy touched!
I was never moved by the 1st days or last days; I always believed ppl who shud remain together, remain together - they don't need school or college to do it for them .. it's just, I'll miss the times we can now spend easily that's all!
Anyway, since u brought up my name up there, I promise u, if I start forgetting ppl, I'll keep u at the end of the list :P
(u know I'll never, huh?! aslan nothing moved me as much as the fact that u're leaving, enough with the last day thing - this is worse! It's weird saying "mesh 7ala2y 7ad a3'ales 3aleih" now, coz now maba2enash ne3'aless 3ala ba3d, that's like zen level 1001 lol)
PS: Dun worry, we'll keep our NA meetings regular enough, who knows, we may stay lucky enough to find more stories, or at least help ppl heal the old ones .. looooooool
I don't know what it is, is it the gloomy exams mood, or is it my sensitivity towards endings, or is it your inspiring words Menna, but I'm feeling kinda sad and I found myself wanting to say something to you guys.
You guys were really special, you really were. I didn't know many people from your class and the people I knew I didn't get the chance to know well, but I know that you guys weren't ordinary.
It's very unusual to find such people gathered in one class. Each one of you is unique, I can't think of one person from Class '08 that I didn't have the pleasure to know.
I remember very well since my first year in college that everyone said that you were the worst class FCIS ever seen and that can't be more wrong. I've always looked up to you, wished my class was like yours and envied you a few times now and then. I mean, come on, you were the spirit of this damn faculty, you organized everything, you were so helpful, you were fun and above all you had love among you that one can't help but feel.
Class '08, it was great having you around, you're gonna be missed by everyone, truly.
I wish you guys all the best in your after-fcis-life. I'm sure people like you will be fine out there.
Love,
Andira
Ala'a :
U know very well that without our NA meetings ... i just couldnt have past those days :)
I'll miss those meetings so very much.
BTW ... i know u can never forget me .. dude am very memorable :)
Andira :
Ur words really touched me :)
its been a pleasure knowing U all ... and i always say FCIS '09 is one of the best Classes there is. U r the last good class actually, am sure u'll be just like us isA :)
i wish U all the best of luck :)
Hi ya menna how re ya??
i know i'm not one of your friends but i read ur post and it's really moving,i just wanted to say that it was a pleasure to be a part of this extraordinary class and the only thing i regret is that i didn't get to know all of u,still i'm gonna miss every single person in this class.
Thanx ya menna for ur words and good luck in everything u do in ur life:)
Oh ya Menna, I kept postponing reading your lovely post till I have some time and mode for it. I didn't wanna just read it as (2erayet garaneen :D).
But now that I read it, I don't find any words to say bgd :D. But I can say that you are one of the people I'm really honored to know. It will be hard to forget you bgd even with my bad memory & I'm so sad you are leaving as Alaa said :'(.
Yalla b2a ne3mel eh, C'est la vie :(
bass mate2ta3eesh el gawabat :D ;)
yaaaaaaaaah ya menna, begad u grabbed my heart n squeezed it :( frankly i didnt think of leaving this way or in other words i never wanted to, but u guys keep on reminding me that its all over :(.
About u ya menna, its a loss that we haven't been that close, we didn't really talk that much except in the last year or two. but eventually i won a friend n a sister that i'm gonna miss like hell while she's gone, dun worry i wont forget u ever :D n yesssssss u're a memorable person n will always be :D.
take care w matenseesh tegebeely ma3aky 7AGAAAAAAAAT kETEEEEEER men ireland :P
Luv u sis ;D
u know ur comment about mine ?? here i am copying and p[asting how cud u make me cry keda ya
we7shaaaaaaaaaaaa luv u
tab3an ,luv u awi awi awi enty w kol as7bana al ghalseen :D ,luv u all guys and wud never ever forget any of u and espcially u
really ya menna ana cried lma 2aret dh bgd
ana ymkn msh kont closed leke awee
bs bgd ente konte gr8 person
w ana bgd very happy to know a friend like u
bgd htw7shene
and i'll miss el dof3a bgd kant agmd dof3a fl college
akeed ente mst3'rba ana asln leh bktb whna msh closed ........:D
bs ana bgd 2olt lazm a3ml reply 3shan a3rfk ad a ana b7bk
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